i can see the future
all charcoal images are drawn after and for the writing. 2025. (besides this one! this is a collab between me and my nephew).
They say you can only think about one thing at a time, but can you feel things so closely one after the other that within moments it’s as if you breathed in an entire lifetime of experiences? It’s viscerally tumultuous without anyone or anything or any sort of influence. It’s raw and perfect and painful and it feels all at once you can somehow see how it’s possible to hold the beauty and wonder and fear all at once. But is it at once or is it just moving so fast.. I am moving at the speed of light to experience the depth so quickly and dramatically. This is the accumulation of life. The years you think you are living and gathering and collecting and here you notice you’ve been alive long enough, just long enough to see an expansion of the whole of it all and it neither worries you nor excites you anymore because it-just-is-how-it-is and everything will always be this way and be available and everyone will always be doing these options and the combinations will just look different but they are all the same and no one else seems to notice they just wake up and breath and live a life ordained and here I am always questioning them all and I thought for sure I only came to this conclusion when I was forty, but I am also 5 and 6 and 7 and I am 12 and I was coming to these conclusions before I knew what it meant to experience them because for some reason I could experience them before I lived in them, but now that I’ve lived in them I wonder what was I thinking when I was so young… the wonder for life quickly fading as nothing seemed surprising and everything became available..all at once..before it was ever lived.